Saturday, March 20, 2010
在此刻，我看着你的照片和以前的讯息。。我哭了。。。
iloveyou❤ at 2:55 AM
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
i'm gonna officially make this site a place where i express my thoughts. be it good or bad, nasty or sweet, or simply just venting my anger.you needn't have to go through all these if you feel uncomfortable. no one forced you to visit this site.. it's my personal thoughts, not related to anyone or anything. I can be right or wrong. This is clear.
I really don't understand why things turned out like this. Should this be even happening in the first place? I'm strangely puzzled..
Who wouldn't want things to be done immediately? I don mind playing guitar for one day and becoming Joe Satriani the next day. I really cant think of how message could spread like this..
I only meant that i couldnt do it immediately at that time. I had things going on. Yeah, i know it's my bad for not bringing down the paper. Sorry. But i really did what i could ASAP.
A few thoughts came across my mind.
What is true in the natural is also true in the spiritual.
In my opinion, i believe that there will be a time of 'stretching' and a time of releasing the 'tension'. You couldnt possibly workout your muscle till it tears can you? It had to have a period of rest. I'm not literally saying that we should slack and just let the workout be wasted..
And even if you workout your muscle till it tears, it cannot go any further! In case you dont know about it, it's called limit. That's where people cannot move on and need breakthrough. And breakthrough requires time. if it doesnt, it's not called breakthrough..
I seriously believe when people reach this stage and cant move on. It does not mean that they have gone cold, backslide, lost passion and etc. If that's the case, Isaiah 40:30 would not even be in the Bible. Rather, i think it's a process where everyone have to go through! Jesus went through it right? He was tempted the way we are in the wilderness. So are you saying that when He was in the wilderness He's actually slacking? Or are you saying that when He cant do many miracle in Nazereth He has actually backsliden?
I'm not pissed or angry or what.
Rather, it's just something that i wanna say out.
I feel better this way.. so why not?
iloveyou❤ at 9:17 PM
Friday, June 26, 2009
Feeling kinda burnt out with the things happening.didnt really do well for my term test..
I'm really trying to make a balance.
but sometimes it really stretches and feel so damn lethargic.
But the funny thing was.. i didnt even felt like at all in the past..
although situations and problems kept coming in, i fought it out again and again.. without even feeling burnt out.
the good old times.. 4 years ago..
Dont get me wrong though.. i'm not trying to backslide or lose my faith.
like what pst Kong said, "It's all too late to lose my faith. Nothing can stop me. Cos' I already EXPERIENCE God!"
Maybe it was true that i once fought alongside with comrades who were willing to die for each other.
it's one thing to press on with companions who care, love, sacrifice and share the same dreams.
and it's another to just hang on with strangers
it's all about relationship.
not only 'hi-bye' category
but those deep heart to heart relationship.
OH YA! let's talk about one thing i hate! COMPARISON!
in my opinion, i feel that there are a few types of comparison.
1)People who compare themselves to others in a very irrelevant way
one stupid illustration i could think of is.. one zebra and hippo was walking and got obstructed by a river. Then hippo tells zebra, "don worry! let's swim over!" hope you understands =.=
2) People who compare someone to others
have you ever been compared to your siblings when you failed your exams during childhood? and how your mom would ask you to at least eat their shit so you could become a lil' bit more intelligent like them? yeah it's that kind. i seriously think that no one is the same. If not, why would God appoint apostles, prophets, evangelists, pastors, teachers?
(i'm referring to smth else.. not gruding abt my childhood sad memories.. =.=)
But nevertheless, i am very easily encouraged! hahaha
Those who hope/wait upon the Lord will have their strength renewed
as i keep hoping, He will give me enough strength to keep going on...
as i keep hoping, He will give me enough strength to keep going on...
as i keep hoping, He will give me enough strength to keep going on...
to keep going on..
to keep going on.... and on...
anyway.. thanks bro....
i will always remember what you taught me....
you have left a legacy behind in my heart..
iloveyou❤ at 12:52 AM
Sunday, June 21, 2009
iloveyou❤ at 1:38 AM
Saturday, June 13, 2009
Square face went back to hk ystd.really miss her.
really
Last friday marked the end of the morning prayer week. Honestly, it was very tiring to wake up so early in the morning.
BUT!
It was worthwhile! I sensed breakthrough in many areas of my life! God's presence was so strong! I was feeling goosebumps throughout the sessions. Definitely not out of cold.
Pst Tan also shared short message about prayers, which really challenged my thinking.
"For the revelation awaits an appointed time;
it speaks of the end
and will not prove false.
Though it linger, wait for it;
it will certainly come and will not delay. "
How would you feel if you are doing something so hard and yet people don't sees and affirm it?
When i dont say anything, it doesnt mean that I dont care or i'm not doing anything. Sometimes, i just dont feel the need of saying everything out. The fruits will show, and action speaks louder than words.
"so that your giving may be in secret. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you."
But i seriously believe in the power of building relationships.
iloveyou❤ at 11:50 PM
Saturday, May 30, 2009
it was a long time since i last updatedHavent been doing well these days. Feeling down and out. Kinda struggling with school works and some following up stuffs.
But amazingly, God touches whenever i'm in the lowest pit.
Sometimes i just felt that i'm screwed up..
But God lifted me out!
Had a wonderful Song of Solomon BS today.
Main message was about relationship with God. Actually, the message shared today was rather similar to what bro Poh shared with us during iWorship101.
It just reminds us back to the first love all over again.
Song of Solomon 1:6
6 Do not look upon me, because I am dark,Because the sun has tanned me.
My mother’s sons were angry with me;
They made me the keeper of the vineyards,
But my own vineyard I have not kept.
Isn't it true? things like schools; works; business or even serving and ministries, got ourselves tied up and we forgot all about the communion with God?
First Love
What exactly is that? Bro Poh told us that he defined it as special moments in our lifes. E.g,
Salvation - The first time i felt the presence of the Lord. I was shaking during worship. Where i first raised my hand in tears and conviction and walked down the aisle full of faith.
and fire came down from heaven and touched me. and i was filled with passion to spread the good news to others.
Water Baptism(not yet for me, soon ya?)
Speaking in tongues - The first time when pastor laid his hands on me. and i started speaking in languages that i've never heard before. when i was told not to be distracted by what my neighbours and i started to mumbled softly. on the way home, i would subsequently make a trip to the toilet, or find a quiet place and start mumbling to 'check' if it's still within me.
Ministry - The first time when i had guitar lesson and was shockingly early. where i took down tons of notes and memorize the open strings by heart through Every Body Gets Down And Eat.
Borrowed the old blue colored TGM guitar from church and tried to play something out of it even though i knew i couldn't. The first time i played for service(shc) and CG, where i could'nt bring myself to do anything else except to practice all day and make sure every note sounds heavenly.
It just brings me back again.
Lord,
I'll not fall. Not now.
Thank you for Your love and strength.
iloveyou❤ at 12:35 AM
Sunday, April 19, 2009
woah woah woah!Thank God for today!
finally managed to fulfill building fund!
although the last month is not cleared yet, but the amount is enough!
after all the months of sacrifices, i was thinking how would God bless me..
i mean.. apart from being obedient to give, of course i gave cos i know God will bless me too!
faith ma right?
i kept thinking and thinking till i limited God's ability..
and after some times, i came to conclusion that it's quite impossible to reap something significant..
i was surprise when i went to my parent's room, i asked her would my pocket money be the same?
she told me it will be increased!!
wahhaa!! praise the Lord!!!
for those who know, it's quite impossible to get a raise in my pocket money =.=
will reap abt 237% more than what i sowed
haha
war is finally over too! hahahaha
really wanna change to be a better person and testimony for God
iloveyou❤ at 11:50 PM
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
school is starting abt a week's timegosh.. after 2 months of slacking
how to adapt to school life? =/
felt kinda weird..
i'll be an old uncle..
haish~
regretted wasting my school days.
damn.. i hate irresponsible people..
i thought things would end after tok move out..
PR not done
Passport's expiry
wth..
Easter is also round the corner
impt day man.
2 millennium ago that was the mark of mankind's salvation.
pray that my friends would come
iloveyou❤ at 8:48 PM
Friday, March 6, 2009
i have an inspiration today!a movie!
The Asylum of Bunga Rumpai
it shall be a sci-fi fantasy
about war between apples, milk, deposit, chocolate, water
wah! it shall be a BOX OFFICE!!
iloveyou❤ at 10:24 PM
Thursday, February 19, 2009
nth to say..sorry victor..
went back to school to sign the attrition form
wah.. feel so wrong..
our SM's department are fulled with good peoples =D
iloveyou❤ at 9:30 PM
Monday, February 16, 2009
it's time to post again =Dwent to the morning prayer meeting last week.
recharged and refreshed! it feels so good to start the day with prayer
although it's kinda early for me.. (--,)
alright, valentines is over
had some board gaming session with the cg peeps at settler's
and then went to dine with baby!
haha not bad la!
i find it quite romantic! i love the gifts!
thanks baby!
oh ya! forgot to tell you guys abt the valentines roses i made! together with 黛比 and angeline 大姐!
haha zai right?
i personally like it very much!
hope the new friends like it too =D
random questions...
anyone of you mind apparel loaning?
i mind.
iloveyou❤ at 1:01 AM
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
met up with zheng zhong the gui and qian hui the boss ystdwent to leisure park
ate KFC for dinner
wanted to ice-skate initially but...!!!
argh.. what a thing to happen..
they do not accept nets!
not just that, the whole plaza don accept nets as well + there isnt any DBS atm..
well, we decided to catch a movie instead
we managed to fork out just enough though!! hahaha!!
so we ended up watching All's Well End's Well
wahhaha super hilarious!
highly recommended!
after that, we took a long long stroll to the bus stop!
haha like 3 lost beggars
home sweet home after that! and gui took the wrong bus.. hahahaha
what an enjoyable day
we should meet up frequently ya?
iloveyou❤ at 1:58 AM
Saturday, January 31, 2009
雨 不停落下来花 怎么都不开
尽管我细心灌溉
你说不爱就不爱
我一个人 欣赏悲哀
爱 只剩下无奈
我 一直不愿再去猜
钢琴上黑键之间
永远都夹着空白
缺了一块
就不精采
紧紧相依的心如何 say goodbye
你比我清楚还要我说明白
爱太深会让人疯狂的勇敢
我用背叛自己
完成你的期盼
把手放开不问一句
say goodbye
当作最后一次对你的溺爱
冷冷清清淡淡今后都不管
只要你能愉快
心 有一句感慨
我 还能够跟谁对白
在你关上门之前
替我再回头看看
那些片段
还在不在
紧紧相依的心如何 say goodbye
你比我清楚还要我说明白
爱太深会让人疯狂的勇敢
我用背叛自己
完成你的期盼
把手放开不问一句
say goodbye
当作最后一次对你的溺爱
冷冷清清淡淡今后都不管
只要你能愉快
iloveyou❤ at 11:10 PM
Sunday, January 25, 2009
had lunch with baby and sisthen headed for CNY service!
it was splendid!!
what a message by pst Kong!!
totally blew my mind away! you guys should listen!!!!
very very interesting message about chinese characters and history!
and you will realize that God has been revealing Himself to us since we were toddlers
a dozen of hours before CNY
wahahahahaha
恭喜发财！
红包拿来！
哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈~
iloveyou❤ at 2:10 AM
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
Got back my results finally..THANK GOD that i pass!
wanna spot the difference?
managed to spot it?
haha.. i'm now eligible for so much more courses than the previous time.
PRAISE THE LORD!
pray for me ya?
i wanna get into TP's Aviation Management and Services
was thinking abt millennia institute earlier on..
思考-ing
but if i'm able to get into AVM, i'll definitely choose it!!!!!!!!!!!
