Tuesday, June 30, 2009
i'm gonna officially make this site a place where i express my thoughts. be it good or bad, nasty or sweet, or simply just venting my anger.you needn't have to go through all these if you feel uncomfortable. no one forced you to visit this site.. it's my personal thoughts, not related to anyone or anything. I can be right or wrong. This is clear.
I really don't understand why things turned out like this. Should this be even happening in the first place? I'm strangely puzzled..
Who wouldn't want things to be done immediately? I don mind playing guitar for one day and becoming Joe Satriani the next day. I really cant think of how message could spread like this..
I only meant that i couldnt do it immediately at that time. I had things going on. Yeah, i know it's my bad for not bringing down the paper. Sorry. But i really did what i could ASAP.
A few thoughts came across my mind.
What is true in the natural is also true in the spiritual.
In my opinion, i believe that there will be a time of 'stretching' and a time of releasing the 'tension'. You couldnt possibly workout your muscle till it tears can you? It had to have a period of rest. I'm not literally saying that we should slack and just let the workout be wasted..
And even if you workout your muscle till it tears, it cannot go any further! In case you dont know about it, it's called limit. That's where people cannot move on and need breakthrough. And breakthrough requires time. if it doesnt, it's not called breakthrough..
I seriously believe when people reach this stage and cant move on. It does not mean that they have gone cold, backslide, lost passion and etc. If that's the case, Isaiah 40:30 would not even be in the Bible. Rather, i think it's a process where everyone have to go through! Jesus went through it right? He was tempted the way we are in the wilderness. So are you saying that when He was in the wilderness He's actually slacking? Or are you saying that when He cant do many miracle in Nazereth He has actually backsliden?
I'm not pissed or angry or what.
Rather, it's just something that i wanna say out.
I feel better this way.. so why not?
iloveyou❤ at 9:17 PM
Friday, June 26, 2009
Feeling kinda burnt out with the things happening.didnt really do well for my term test..
I'm really trying to make a balance.
but sometimes it really stretches and feel so damn lethargic.
But the funny thing was.. i didnt even felt like at all in the past..
although situations and problems kept coming in, i fought it out again and again.. without even feeling burnt out.
the good old times.. 4 years ago..
Dont get me wrong though.. i'm not trying to backslide or lose my faith.
like what pst Kong said, "It's all too late to lose my faith. Nothing can stop me. Cos' I already EXPERIENCE God!"
Maybe it was true that i once fought alongside with comrades who were willing to die for each other.
it's one thing to press on with companions who care, love, sacrifice and share the same dreams.
and it's another to just hang on with strangers
it's all about relationship.
not only 'hi-bye' category
but those deep heart to heart relationship.
OH YA! let's talk about one thing i hate! COMPARISON!
in my opinion, i feel that there are a few types of comparison.
1)People who compare themselves to others in a very irrelevant way
one stupid illustration i could think of is.. one zebra and hippo was walking and got obstructed by a river. Then hippo tells zebra, "don worry! let's swim over!" hope you understands =.=
2) People who compare someone to others
have you ever been compared to your siblings when you failed your exams during childhood? and how your mom would ask you to at least eat their shit so you could become a lil' bit more intelligent like them? yeah it's that kind. i seriously think that no one is the same. If not, why would God appoint apostles, prophets, evangelists, pastors, teachers?
(i'm referring to smth else.. not gruding abt my childhood sad memories.. =.=)
But nevertheless, i am very easily encouraged! hahaha
Those who hope/wait upon the Lord will have their strength renewed
as i keep hoping, He will give me enough strength to keep going on...
as i keep hoping, He will give me enough strength to keep going on...
as i keep hoping, He will give me enough strength to keep going on...
to keep going on..
to keep going on.... and on...
anyway.. thanks bro....
i will always remember what you taught me....
you have left a legacy behind in my heart..
iloveyou❤ at 12:52 AM
Sunday, June 21, 2009
iloveyou❤ at 1:38 AM
Saturday, June 13, 2009
Square face went back to hk ystd.really miss her.
really
Last friday marked the end of the morning prayer week. Honestly, it was very tiring to wake up so early in the morning.
BUT!
It was worthwhile! I sensed breakthrough in many areas of my life! God's presence was so strong! I was feeling goosebumps throughout the sessions. Definitely not out of cold.
Pst Tan also shared short message about prayers, which really challenged my thinking.
"For the revelation awaits an appointed time;
it speaks of the end
and will not prove false.
Though it linger, wait for it;
it will certainly come and will not delay. "
How would you feel if you are doing something so hard and yet people don't sees and affirm it?
When i dont say anything, it doesnt mean that I dont care or i'm not doing anything. Sometimes, i just dont feel the need of saying everything out. The fruits will show, and action speaks louder than words.
"so that your giving may be in secret. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you."
But i seriously believe in the power of building relationships.
